Friendships, Sisterhood, Trust, Communication, and Responsiblity.

I know its been a month but for anyone who knows me, ya know I was at the Super Bowl and this year the Pro Bowl was thrown in there. . . .
Anyway, ya already know how I feel about Haiti. Well another subject has shifted my focus tonight. .

A girlfriend that once was a great friend to me, now gone rouge. . .

Friendship- state of being friends with someone. This is something that I take very seriously. Do people really not value awesome friends anymore. Sometimes friends treat you better than your own family. I cant understand why anyone in their right mind, who needs friends would treat another person so crudely.

Sisterhood- sisterly relationship, solidarity of women based on shared conditions, experience, or concerns. We had great times together and thought there were reasons to lie, steal, or hurt each other.

Trust- assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something, one of which confidence is placed. When I can no longer trust someone it angers me to unbelievable heights and evilness, because the lie is so petty and never should have been told. $$ and life play a huge factor in the situation. I am just in total awe of the entire situation. . . . .

Communication- a process by which information is exchanged between individuals through a common sense of symbols, signs, or behavior. Do people not realize that if your in trouble and you are suppose to be friends, that you are their to support them. Kids are involved and you should not take that lightly.

Responsibility- something for which one is responsible (burden) - has neglected her responsibilities. As a mother your child should come first, not men, not your pride, not your family- that beautiful child of yours. . .

Situation is that I have this girlfriend that use to be very close to me, but until 3 years ago she started to change. She went from being a country club member, football players & very sucessful men, being respected by the community,alot of friends, beamers & benz to men who live in halfway houses, lying, friends who tolerate her and money issues.

3 yeas ago she started dating someone who had only been out of jail for 3 weeks. He lived in a half way house, after doing 10 years in jail. (yeah- I know) Yall don't understand this is no hood chick, has a family of means, support, and money. Board member in different social groups, does fundraising, goes to social balls and knows what the term "Seasons" mean in Palm Beach, lolol if U have to ask, then U don't know, lolol And her last boyfriend played for the Chicago Bears.

Anyway, where was I? oh. so he is out of jail after 10 years, and in a half way house. Now, she has a jaguar, a beamer, 2 houses, job that pays over $100,000 a year, single with no kids. PRIME of her life. .

Now her new beau straight outta jail, is driving her cars, and she is treating his family to dinner and shopping sprees. "I'm floored as well as her other friends and her family. We tried the nice approach, which U already figured didn't work, then cursing her out before things got out of hand.

So she is now falling in love, lost her mind and crazy within 2 months of meeting this guy. So now she is talking about marriage and of course my phone keeps hanging up on her, I have no idea( the line just dies, lolol) anyway, a few months later she is telling me she is pregnant ( I think its a bad joke but its true) he still living in the half way house. So now, she is getting married, I asked her if she wants me to slit her wrist for her, especially after she tells me about her moms disapproval (YA THINK! ) He is also kicking her ass, we cant talk about that right now, I am getting mad.

The OMG moment! While she is waiting on him to take her to the court house and get married, he just called to say "I love you" ooops, no wrong story, he called to say "I decided to marry someone else and I am now married to her" WTF, OMG, Kill yo self drama. . I was looking for Jerry Springer to come busting thru the door or Aston Kutcher to say "your being punked". 2 weeks later, we find out, not only did he marry someone else on her, but the new wife is pregnant and they are a week apart on delivery dates and there is a 3rd lady pregnant as well. . I ask, can U believe it? This is a true story. . .WAIT THERE IS ALOT MORE. . so now she is really lost her MIND, not calling her crazy, she has become crazy. . And I know love is a mutha fucka, but dam. .Yall shouldn't have been together in the first place. Now she is looking real stupid, what did you think would happen with a nigga who been locked up for 10 years with no PUSSY. WHAT DID YOU THINK WOULD HAPPEN, REALLY? I need to know.


So now she starts dating another man she met, while taking him back and forth from the half way house. . I guess hoping to see him and make him jealous. her rationalization for anything is out the door. Same thing with this one, but now she is 7 months pregnant and sleeping with someone else in the halfway house with 9 kids. She has the baby, the guy is maybe around until 2 months after, then she is back with the baby daddy who has left his wife, but not divorced her. (I guess he needed money to support that other family) lolol he came back for a few months and left again. . .Back to his wife and $6 an hour job, and my friend is just a lunatic. . she is now stalking him, buying things for his family (sisters and his son from before he went to prison) I call her crazy, bcuz she has lost he job running behind him and now is not working. Her daughter is quickly growing up. She lost both houses and both cars and moved in with her parents. Its another year, and the child they had is now a year and a half. For some reason - I think he needed money again and his wife put him up to it, she is slimy just as he is, now I knew why he married her, aside from her being pregnant too.

Holidays 2009,around October- she gets a house and they move in together, but this was short lived. The wife only kicked him out, no intentions on divorcing him. He started to kick her ass again and this time breaks her arm. YES BROKE HER FUCKING ARM. . . and then left her on Christmas Day to spend time with his real family. She calls me outta the blue bcuz I started to separate my friendship from her for over a year now.

I realize she needed a friend, so in January 2010, I decide to go see her, but for 2 weeks she kept having emergencies come up. . So I finally said, "look bitch I will be there in the morning , fuck the bullshit" she comes out and says she is 5.5 months pregnant by him. . OMG...........................................................!

I mean, WTF . . . The first thing I could say was when is ur appointment at the clinic for an AB? WHAT? Yall just don't know. . She says, she doesn't know if she can get it done, I'm thinking she is talking about time, this bitch is considering having another child by him. . I told her it was up to 6mths, and don't make me call her mom. . . I couldn't even go see her, I was so mad. . .She went about 5 days later to terminate the pregnancy. . . .Said her mother took her, I now do NOT believe that.

So I am trying to give her support because I feel so sadden by her change in demeanor, and mind set. And just embarrassed for her all together as my friend. I mean, I am a hermit at times, but I have 4 very strong friendships that I call on in a time of need. . And for her not to come to me, I am just floored, mad, and in awe at what she has been getting involved in.. .

So lets go to 2 weeks ago, Super Bowl week in South Florida, she claims to be moving into a new house for a new start. Well yesterday I am at her house around 11:30a, she flew out of town at 7am, but didn't tell me yet again what type of trouble she is in. . Landlord comes to evict her, wait she moved in 2 weeks ago. . She has written 2 bad checks and then deposited a check for a closed account into the homeowners business account (can you say FELONY?). . . so the landlord is informing me that I have to visit, I tell him no problem, I don't even live here and was visiting, I will pack my luggage and be on my way sir. So I am looking for my wallet, I find everything, except my wallet. I call her, she says well my car is at the airport in the city she flew out of, then I say, ok I need to go get it, then she said she flew out of another city 45 minutes away. . I said fuck it. Its no telling where my wallet is. So now today, I have been calling her for over 24 hours and no phone calls or text's. So I am now wondering, is this bitch hiding from me, she better not be, she better be in jail.

She went to JAIL yesterday for wire fraud, where she flew out of, I guess it was business! WOW, what an ending to a 3 year turmoil of foolishness.

I was and am so fucking mad at her, and now I cant stop crying, why will happen to the baby & and her things in the house. Shit is so fucked up, I will now value even the smallest of new friendships and always have at least 2 people who I can depend on, i wish she would have known, I was that person should could depend on.

But at the same time, I still want to and may choke the bitch when she gets out. . .

WOW! Adoptions, over $600 million raised, and fake Haitian charities popping up all over..

Adoption of Haitian children, wow. . We have so many rich people in America now eager and willing to adopt Haitian kids bcuz they have no homes. Yes I do feel sorry for the kids, but where were these people months ago. Now they are just looking to keep up with the jones's. But my thought is, it wasn't in your heart lasst month, if you couldnt do anything for the hundreds of thousands of America Orphans with no homes, then why now? Becuz you see ur friends doing it, its fashionable now. White people are adopting little black kids like they are buying an hand bag. This is a mutha fucking shame, where were are all the other people who feel the same way, that we should have been adopting the kids here. I dont get it and no one is talking about it, not even the news, do I need to listen to Rush Limbaugh? lolol

Stop calling my phone complaining, post a comment about what you feel on my page. . Just click follow and add your comment... Dont agree with me, POST A COMMENT PLEASE, let me know how I am so wrong and will burn in hell for my thoughts. .

I do alot in the community and state of florida, a natural disaster doesn't have to happen in order for me to give a dollar, donate clothes, food, a ride, or anything. If more people just let a kind hand to others around them, we wouldnt be so sucked up in our own coutry. You cant find a job and people who owned homes 2 years ago are now homeless (who has been helping them) not our government, its too dam hard to get your home re-fied or a loan modification. Many who had cars are now walking or catching the city bus. What kinda shit is that? Now all the white people wanna rush out and adopt a little haitian baby or child, whom most will not be able to communicate with becuz of our language barrier. What do you think about this?

Do you know in a weeks time, they have raised over $600,000,000 in donations and by the time the Friday nite broadcast fundraiser ends, I know they will reach over the $1 billion dollar mark. . Will this be enough to rebuild this small, poverty and corrupt country. Or will the theiving government start over with the money stealing again, who will watch and govern them this time, because they obvously can not be honest and help their people. . Your either upper class or lower class.


Will the militia who broke into the orphange today to steal the kids food, let them rebuild the country. I dont remember the gangs and thugs that run New Orleans, harrassing people during Hurricane Katrina or the militia killing people after theTsunami in Indonesia, but Haiti- they baffle me. Stealing to re-sell, who in the fuck are you selling too, after an earthquake where every thing is destoyed and people dont even own bank accounts in the first place, your moneygrams and western unions are gone as who, so who the fuck are you selling too? Other people like yourselves who were already poor? The media and military- they brought their own food and water. WHY? I cant fathom this shit at all. .


Now down here in Miami, we have to deal with fake Haitian Charities popping up everywhere. How do I know? 2 of the people who have approached me about donating, I know they are crooks, they never help anyone and that money will NOT make it to Haiti or a charity, just as sure as I am white (look at my pic to the right) lolol. Why wouldn't you just call the Red Cross, Catholic Charities, or one of the reputable charities to donate? Becuz they (these haitian crooks that prey on their own people) already have plans for your dough. 1 even joked with me about buying a new car and how much money he made during Katrina. ( I called and reported him to police) Oh well. . . and yes, he is HAITIAN, both of them are. And a 3rd while i was in his office last wednesday, getting some business services done, called an attorney and told them, to set him up a foundation right quick? Why would you need to do something like that at the last minute, just like the adoption- they have other motives. . .( TO STEAL)

This shit is just making people like MYSELF madder and madder every day, its pathetic. . Even in a time of turmoil, scam artist will take advantage. Rather its their officials, or their own people in another country. In a few months, we will start to see reports on "Haiti, where did the money go" you will see the obvious, lolol ( Administration Fees) lolololol and you know I am right. . .

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Temporary Protective Status to Haitians, WOW!

I am highly upset with the government today, just saw the report (Temporary status to Haitians) wow! OK, I was not upset for the humanitarian aid given, but dam. . Now they can come and get drivers licenses, and work permits. I thought we were in a recession and at 17% unemployment rate and that is just the unemployment that is reported. What about all the people who use to get paid under the table that lost jobs, lolol


Now we have to not only fight the Haitians that are here and willing to work for beans, now more of their families are arriving and will do the same thing. DAYUM! Plenty of Americans feel the same way I do, especially when you loose a cushy $32 an hour job to a Haitian that doesn't have half the experience, common sense, english, or education that you do. But you find out, it was all about the money, and they said they would work for $9 an hour, so your ass is now out of a job. You cant work at KFC, bcuz you are too educated or a flight risk (when u find a better job making what you use to make, your gone). I am one of those Americans, Hey Mr. Obama can I get a stimulus package to pay my rent, so I wont die on the streets due to starvation and homelessness.

They come over and start their own communites, never learn English and look at us like we are crazy if we wont to live among them. They are in this country for 14 years and dont speak english ( or at least they pretend to) I do admire how they buy at each others businesses and even if that fellow Haitian cheats them, they will still go back. They easily get government grants from uncle sam, but a citizen has to do dog and pony tricks. (but other immigrants get that treatment as well)


When America has a natural disaster, our aid comes for our government, am i correct? I dont remember French in New Orleans or New York. Did we get aid and help packages from other countries, I really don't remember, enlighten me readers. I need to know. . I remember, me helping and other Americans, I saw an article today about Haitians sending aid back home, they have been doing that.. What's new? I had a Haitian co-worker in Jacksonville, saying she didnt have it to give to Katrina victims and we worked together. She drove a nice car and lived in a nice home, but I bet she sent money to Haiti.


The biggest Haitian communities are in Miami. We house almost 300,000 Haitians, some came legally(nothing against them), others came legally (but never left when visa or status was over) Umm, some swam over, and others stole away by any means necessary. WTF. . . . I think all those proud Haitians here, should go back and physically help build Haiti, they could be a great nation, but all of their citizens are running here and Canada. . May the Dominicans should buy the land and they could use that money to rebuild and call themselves Dominicans, lolol


Ya know, I just was wondering, what other countries are going to line up and let them come and give them food stamps, drivers license, and Citizenship like us (United States)? If you have seen the reports, please comment for others to see. I would appreciate it. I know they may go to other countries, but where?



I dont know, i am just pissed at Obama, and the U.S and dont hate me, i am not the only one who feels this way. The others are just scared. . I dont give a fuck and speak my mind. Dam! Miami is messed up. We had a few homeless die on the street last week, who came forward to help them. You cant get $5 for domestic violence, Autism research, homelessness, orphans( adoptions), church's who help people pay their rent, or any organization to help someone here in our backyard. . Hey Angelina, Brad, Tiger can we get some help with shelters for the homeless. We do have single men and women on the streets dying everyday. . They cant find a job, and not becuz of lack of experience or education, its becuz someone else will do it for $3 an hour.



I am just floored today, thats all. You would be frustrated too, if you saw people tryin to help over here and you cant raise a dime out of someone, bcuz they claim not to have any money to help orphan kids or autistic kids and they take $14,000 in cash to donate to Haiti. I mean, they only wanted a $30 donation. Dont they need supplies in Haiti, why did you go buy and deliver supplies? Someone just bought a new Birkin Bag, or a new car, lolol. Too many mom and pop chairties that never did anything before, start to pop up to fast and too quick on social sites, who is talking about that. Think about it! 9-11 and hurricane katrina funding. .


They just wasted a half billion dollars in raised funds to Haiti. $400,000,000 from non-profits and Americans, and other nations and $100,000,000 from Obama (tax payers). The polical heads that are still alive, have already picked out new homes in other countries, including America and spent that money on luxury items in their heads. We have been giving them money for years and my thought was, why their government didnt give them a stimulus package and why were they so poor.Millions poor into Haiti, millions.  Top officials in Haiti live good, I mean very good. . I have meant a few of their families that live in Miami and they brag about their homes and the pictures that they have shown me. I am blown away by all of this. Can I get a biscuit please? $$


Scientist did warn them (top officials) of the earthquake, so what happend in that communication? More people could have lived.


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Ah, Shit its the NEW YEAR BITCH's. . .

Can Old Things be made new again? or am I just horny?

I have since like early October 09, been thinking about a particular ex, that I thought I would not think about in this way again. My problem, is for the last 3 years we have seen each other, talk all the time on the phone, have even partied together and never slept together again. I honestly didn't want to, but would joke around with him. Only becuz we both are sexual creatures, that is what started our relationship and kept it going. Aside from me being the awesome woman that I am.  Play Wit It!

Anyway, in the last 3 months, I have had like an lust, dreams and sensations about sleeping with him again for real. Can this be from getting bad sex and remembering the Animalistic sex that we use to have, having heartless sex with my boytoy (he is so fine, but an idiot) or is this simply my feelings toward him have truly changed. Now, I feel crazy bcuz I have no idea if this person has grown up or not. I have, but can I truly sleep with him and leave like I am known for, and say smooches at the end?

I think I can, but he said something to me a week ago, that I have been thinking about alot. He said, sleeping with you claims my heart. I asked what he meant, he said he could not just have sex with me and that is it. . I felt good that someone still felt that way after all this time but weird. And he also said he saw us in the church but not sitting in the pews. I felt weirded out at the same time, just not sure which weird it was. (I was horny and wanted to fuck)

My problem is, do I do me, and have some animalistic sex to start 2010 off right, or do I keep my legs closed and remain friends, with this person. . I love him and I always will.

But I have the men around, but lately I have just wanted him and kept my boy toy and other men at bay. What does this mean? I truly need the ultimate nut right now and I am the kinda person that doesnt like the 2nd item on the menu. I get mad if what I ordered is not available. lolol

Oh my, I am having some heavy issues right now!

Why I havent written in a month? THANKSGIVING, R u N need?

Some of you know Thanksgiving is a very sad time for me, but this year was different. I stayed in the house and ate only once, yeah and it was less than 300 calories. I did a lot of thinking, meditation and church, just having a wonderful time being happy. Then on Black Friday is where my holiday turned UGLY. OK!

Someone bought me a light sweater, bcuz the weather was changing and she knew I wasn't working, like I use to and was job hunting. So when she was bringing me back to my brothers house Friday night it was freezing like 45 degrees outside. We are driving and I saw this lady sitting next to a grocery cart full of her things shivering, with her head bent down. So I asked my EX- GF , (who will remain nameless), well let's; nick name her HEFFA. So I asked this Heffa to turn around I needed to go into Walgreens, that was a lie on my part. I walked down the sidewalk and gave this trashy and odor ridden lady my new sweater which I loved. She was so stank my eyes watered the closer I got to her. She told me she was hungry and I told her I came to give her my sweater and I only had $1.30 on me and she could have it.

Now the Heffa I was with, said Y the hell you gave that bitch the sweater I just bought you. I said I will give you $20 when I get paid, and I appreciate it, but I guess that means I cant ask you for $3 to give her. lolol, I said that lady has no where to sleep, shelters are crowed and at least I have a place to sleep tonight".
This Heffa said, I don't give them bums shit, all they do is drank it up" Now to my knowledge and I don't claim to be the smartest person on the planet, but how can you DRINK up a sweater? I asked her and she got mad, do you know this Heffa left me at Walgreens and I had to walk to my brothers house 7 blocks with my things in my hand, it was freezing Friday night.

So guess who called today Monday after Thanksgiving to apologize, she said she was reprimanded by her husband. I believe that. He is a good person and honestly always has been too good for her, but anyway, I diverse, lolol So after she finished talking, I politely said, I am walking into an interview and its not a problem if you don't talk or call me any more. (hint, hint) I prefer friends that care for others, bcuz if you see me in the streets one day, I wanna know your not gonna walk over and kick me, but give me a helping hand.

The world would be a better place and I would be much happier than I am, if we just PAID A LITTLE FORWARD, it doesn't take much, just a little. Put a quarter in someone's expired meter, buy a friend some lunch, if you see they might cant afford it, give a new paid a shoes to a kid at a less fortunate school (teachers know, just ask who the kids are). . THINK ABOUT IT!

What a Heffa she is, Ill get that bitch the $18 we paid for the sweater at Ross, lolol but she is no longer a friend of mine, she had been downgraded to (pass me by associate) lolol


Dumping Ass Wipes in 2009 is still my motto. . . .Kick rocks if you don't agree. . .

Good Energy from today, tomorrow, and the future. . . . .


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